New year resolutions

I have never made a new year resolution before, just because of the reason that I'm not much of a planner and my life as well likes it that way.Besides, I believe, every thing and any thing new, should come by as a surprise. And I also believe all you need on a new year's eve is a heart wide enough to accept those pleasant and unpleasant ones.And I totally understand it when you guys think, “yea yea just a big heart alone for a new year, phew!!!

Quite contrary to the normal theory of death, people rejoice the demise of a year, especially when the new year is knocking at your doors with hopes for better and happier surprises lurking behind every new day ahead .To me, this passing year has been quite portentous and memorable since I managed to pull off some of the flights of fancies i had pined for my self.Successfull completion of academics with neither honors nor regrets, a surprising career, a modest earning, all which can be termed as achievements of a real passel of all those vibrant and enthusiastic years i have come through. May be they don’t seem to be much of an accomplishment to any other being, but for me, they are better than what I expected or what I had a run at, yea, seriously, considering the lazy brat I used to be.

So, when Time has offered me so many good thing to cherish and be proud in life, without much of an effort from my side,I am thinking of doing Time a small favor in return.I dont think it deserves so much of a hype as a new year resolution or any thing ,because its not even very peculiar among the resolutions any one has made so far.

I have always found it very hard to say “NO” to things, people and situations.Yea, you heard me right, told you before itself that it was not a big deal... not a big deal when you just say it, but big enough a deal when you experience it ! I have done a lot of things I do not like at all and had to pretend I enjoy doing them. Its not a million times I 've asked myself ; Why didn't you just say “no” , a simple and humble “no”.I almost believed that I was born incapable of saying N word or rather I had no “No” in my vocabulary.

Now you would wonder why this sudden burst of realization? And why now? Or rather why wait till new year?

That is where I'm really indebted to this year, it gave me situations where I didn't wait to think and just said “no”, Yea! surprised myself! Honestly, its a great feeling I find hard to describe, it feels like freedom, relief, peace, calm and sanity.This abrupt resolution is a back lash of my woebegone experiences with people who takes real advantage of weaklings like me!So, today, 31.12.2010 is gonna be the last day in my life any one could ever ask me any thing and not expect a “No” for the answer.

Here and Back Again!!!!

It’s been a while since my last visit. After all that initial outbursts and vivacity, i couldn't come up with anything worthy of FOJ (as if, eh?). But I had to trigger my gray matter to come up with something before my compositions found places among the dusty cobwebbed shelves of BlogSpot.

Well! To update with the aftermaths, there has been a hell lot happening in the real world. Didn't i tell you that free hours would soon be just figment of my imagination? Well, it’s on the process! To further comment or condemn it would be blasphemy ... I am just happy that i have something to keep myself engaged to!

Like any true- blue Christian, without yielding to any temptations, i have come off a 21 day old lent, 4 more days to go! The month of December has always been one of pleasant surprises...the year always ended well for me, even at school inspite of the end- term exams before Christmas vacations.

I don't feel a day older than when i used to sit there as roll no.21 right behind Aiswarya AR, occasionally peeking at my 'best friends still', and give the look that said; wow! The exams are over, who cares how well it went, i'm off for 10 days... but i will certainly miss you guys!

"My mind

Ran at high speed, my body crept behind."

These are the lines of Vikram Seth from one of my favorite poems, but the state of mind is quite the reversal.

My body has come a long way by, but mind still lingers behind, searching for clues that i might have overlooked and parts i missed to play...

For all those scatter brains who coined the "haunting past"; let me tell you, past has never been haunting to me, its always been a treasure of memories i hold close to my heart, a magical wand to swish and flick  and clear away all the mist and murk of the days unborn!

"Memory is a child walking along seashore.  You never can tell what small pebble it will pick up and store away among its treasured things": Pierce Harris, Atlanta Journal. To old and happy memories!

"I am not busy yet!

I haven't received any rotten eggs or vegetables as of yet on my blog, but rather an encouraging note from my best friend and a few suggestions to improve from a nice friend. So, now i can be at ease that  my previous composition has not been a complete waste of time and brain!!

The days of work-less-ness continues! Except for a small remote demo ( that too observing the demo!), today was as uneventful as yesterday....but my mind tells me to stop fretting and enjoy these free hours cuz sooner or later they too would be just figments of my imagination. I am so sure of it as i have seen the turn of these events back in college.

Back then,when you had to work like asinine, doing ass-ignments, preparing for endless tests and presentations, put up with the disgusting and expensive hostel food, you treasure every second of the once in a month break to go home! But this going home frenzy stays up with its full intensity only when the duration of holidays are short, believe me, it is! Once the “vacation” crosses the 3rd day(mostly, it never was more than 2 days) you would start egging to go back to your effing hostel because you are soooo used to working your *** off, that you cant stand the idleness for more than just a few days . You just need a break enough to refresh. Besides, its only and always the hard labored day that honors our memories.

“I cannot walk through the suburbs in the solitude of the night without thinking that the night pleases us because it suppresses idle details, just as our memory does.” Jorge Luis Borges

 These flash backs are quite resourceful, to get you past the era of idleness just enough before the devil's work shop takes over !!! So, ill just take up these leisure as a timely treat (to the envy of my busy colleagues) to brush up my literary skills (also my job related skills, lest I should get fired!) and stay fresh for the days of “hard labor”. Hopefully!

Adieu!!!

Stopping by on a lazy evening....

Exactly 23 years, 6 months and 24 days ago on a very, not so cool Saturday evening, I came into being. Being a typical Cancerian, I spent a real chunk of my life in the crab shell. Now that, the pressures of life has forced me out of my cozy, lazy dream world, now that, I don't have a class of sixty students around to hide me out, I decided to face it... get out of the dreams, face and love the real world from which I have shunted myself for so long. Taking inspiration from a few other bloggers and seeking out a convenient way to kill time, here I go...

Have you ever heard of IT employees sitting idle, having nothing to do, killing time playing games and writing blogs? Well, you are just reading one right now. Don't be so shocked! It’s a privilege, some of us, as fresher, have for the time being...

Oh; I really hope that wasn't a boring lecture, anyways, just something to start by. 

It was not always like this, past two years in college kept us dead busy. But they had been fun, the tight schedules, the assignments and the strict assessments always kept us engaged. But then it was, "oh God, this is hell! When am I ever gonna get out of here?"

Now that it’s over, and life has presented a new course, the past ones seem like long heard happy songs! I miss the saying, "sorry I'm busy"!

With a better prospect towards life and with full faith in what Keats once said; "heard melodies are sweet, but those unheard are sweeter; ye soft pipes, play on;" Off I go for a short coffee break, till the next time I strike with something less boring........