I have never made a new year resolution before, just because of the reason that I'm not much of a planner and my life as well likes it that way.Besides, I believe, every thing and any thing new, should come by as a surprise. And I also believe all you need on a new year's eve is a heart wide enough to accept those pleasant and unpleasant ones.And I totally understand it when you guys think, “yea yea just a big heart alone for a new year, phew!!!
Quite contrary to the normal theory of death, people rejoice the demise of a year, especially when the new year is knocking at your doors with hopes for better and happier surprises lurking behind every new day ahead .To me, this passing year has been quite portentous and memorable since I managed to pull off some of the flights of fancies i had pined for my self.Successfull completion of academics with neither honors nor regrets, a surprising career, a modest earning, all which can be termed as achievements of a real passel of all those vibrant and enthusiastic years i have come through. May be they don’t seem to be much of an accomplishment to any other being, but for me, they are better than what I expected or what I had a run at, yea, seriously, considering the lazy brat I used to be.
So, when Time has offered me so many good thing to cherish and be proud in life, without much of an effort from my side,I am thinking of doing Time a small favor in return.I dont think it deserves so much of a hype as a new year resolution or any thing ,because its not even very peculiar among the resolutions any one has made so far.
I have always found it very hard to say “NO” to things, people and situations.Yea, you heard me right, told you before itself that it was not a big deal... not a big deal when you just say it, but big enough a deal when you experience it ! I have done a lot of things I do not like at all and had to pretend I enjoy doing them. Its not a million times I 've asked myself ; Why didn't you just say “no” , a simple and humble “no”.I almost believed that I was born incapable of saying N word or rather I had no “No” in my vocabulary.
Now you would wonder why this sudden burst of realization? And why now? Or rather why wait till new year?
That is where I'm really indebted to this year, it gave me situations where I didn't wait to think and just said “no”, Yea! surprised myself! Honestly, its a great feeling I find hard to describe, it feels like freedom, relief, peace, calm and sanity.This abrupt resolution is a back lash of my woebegone experiences with people who takes real advantage of weaklings like me!So, today, 31.12.2010 is gonna be the last day in my life any one could ever ask me any thing and not expect a “No” for the answer.
